It's odd, this age of mine.
I mean, I'm at a perfectly normal age. College-age. But it's weird how I can fluctuate between teenager (even though I'm not one anymore) and grownup mentality given circumstances.
When I'm off at school, I'm a grownup. (Er...at least, as much as a grownup as you can be when you play MarioKart on a daily basis.) I pay my own bills, run my own errands, do my own laundry, the norm.
When I'm at home (and this counts the past two summers) and nannying, I'm a grownup. I have the health, safety and well-being of other human beings in my responsibility. And while I have a blast (most of the time, haha) doing that, I am still constantly on alert. Feeding, playing with, mediating for, hugging, comforting, occasionally doctoring, etc., the kids I am responsible for.
When I'm at home at my house, my parents treat me like an adult. I'll run errands for them as needed. I'll do my own laundry as needed (STOP LAUGHING, MOM AND DAD--I TOTALLY WILL). I keep track of my own bills, keep my room (fairly) straight (no really, Mom and Dad, STOP LAUGHING), and, y'know, all that grownup-y stuff.
And yet: I'm not quite a grownup. I don't have a house or a mortgage (though I do have massive tuition payments and a significant chunk of debt looming over me). I don't have kids--the bonus of being a nanny is that you can hand them back to their parents at the end of the day. I still have my dad to kill cockroaches for me.
I can vote, smoke, buy porn, have abortions (NOT THAT I WOULD. Just legally, I could), I can gamble, I can buy guns (again: not that I would. REALLY), and I can go to war.
I can't, however, buy alcohol (yet) or rent a car.
It's weird: when I'm with family, and I transition back into the 'kid' role. I'm sillier, gigglier, (my sister would say 'annoyingier')...it's bizarre, and kind of hard to explain. I think it's because most of my extended relatives do look at me and consider me still a kid.
I do wonder if I'll always be a kid in their eyes.
Well, yeah, probably. Since I'll be 4'11 for the rest of my life.