As much as I've been trying to avoid thinking about it, money woes have caught up with me. BIG TIME. See, this whole college thing? Is rather expensive. I know, you're shocked.
The crushing realization is that if I continue to go to DreamSchool (which I really, really want to do), I'll have to end up borrowing around $80,000. Which is really, really daunting. Especially if you break that down to it being about $600 a month for thirty years. THIRTY. YEARS.
I have a few options to consider to help lower the costs. One is to be an R.A., which would save me approximately $10,000 a year. Which would help A LOT. One problem, though, with being an R.A., is that at DreamSchool you have to live in your own room. Alone. And unfortch, I *hate* sleeping in a room alone. It just makes me feel lonely and depressed, and I get a LOT of anxiety. But for $10,000? I may just have to be lonely/depressed for a while.
The other option is to apply for the Honors track. My grades are good enough for it, but I could only get in for next year if one of the freshmen drops out. Which is highly unlikely. The other thing is that it's a t-o-n TON of work. I have a few friends who are in the program and they very rarely see the light of day. The Honors track is HALF tuition, though.
So it's a sticky situation--pay the normal amount for an amazing, fun college experience (which is what it's been so far), or pay half as much and be fairly miserable? I really don't know. I think I may apply for the Honors track, just to see if I'd get in. Then I could make a decision. And I may apply to be an R.A. too, even though I don't know if I'd get the position.
BLAH. MONEY. It doesn't help that I lost a fairly significant chunk of change in the stock market, either. But enough with this money talk! I'm going to bed.