First of all--please keep posting confessions below. The response overwhelmed me! The main reason I did it was after I confessed (anonymously) my own secrets on another blogger's site, I somehow felt better. I hope y'all confessors did too.
ANYWAY. Buckle your seatbelts, this one's gonna be a doozy!
My birthday was great yesterday. I've actually been babysitting in the mornings occasionally for little J. He's now 6 months old and as ADORABLE as ever:
Big sister K. has been there a few days too. I'm really, really loving having little ones again! I do enjoy my time with my new families, but all the kids are older and I miss the babies!!!
I'm at a pretty sticky situation in regards to next year. As most of y'all know, I've taken this year off to work before I go to college. I applied and was accepted last year to my DREAM school up north. Problem is, it's very expensive (as most all private colleges are these days) and we just found out that Dream School (not its real name, duh) isn't going to offer me any financial aid.
We were counting on the financial aid...one year of Dream School would literally empty ALL my savings and all the money my parents have saved up, and I'd still have to take out loans. But unfortunately, since we do have almost enough for a full year at Dream School...they're giving me nada.
Basically I have a few big decisions to make. Either we empty all our savings and send me to Dream School for a year, and then they told us I'll definitely be eligible for financial aid for the next 3 years (but we don't know how much I'll be aid I'll get). So I'd have no money, but be at Dream School. And the perk about Dream School is that it's pretty famous within the field I'm pursuing--so grad school wouldn't be a necessity; I could get a good, well-paying job without it (and save tons of money by not going to grad school). OR I enroll full-time in community college for the next 4 years and graduate from there, while working too, and pursue Dream School for graduate school. OR I go to a bigger state school, emptying about 1/2 our savings, and think about graduate school later.
I'm busy crunching numbers right now and trying to figure out how best to make things work, while still really hoping to go to my dream school. I'm a bit nervous since Dream School's tuition went up $3,000 from last year unexectedly. I don't know what it'll do next year. Another problem is my trip up there in April for the Open House--I booked my flight a LONG time ago expecting to get financial aid (we had NO idea we weren't going to get any). I need to make a decision fairly quickly so we can either keep or sell the tickets.
It's a lot to think about right now. I'd appreciate any suggestions you guys have...